It's a new year

Holaaaa!
Here is a quick look at my day today! Just another medical camp ...plus a SWEET sand-drawing-picture-thing contest! Amazing. These creations are part of the Diwali festival and they are incredible. We were sitting at the front of this huge village, handing out prizes and I think every part of me was smiling. It really was a beautiful experience. I LOVE this country and I LOVE the people.... I think you get it. I feel fabulous. Much love

Me + the CFI doctors. I look like a creep

Art work!

What do YOU think...

Is there anything more dangerous than a group of seven year old boys with A LOT of fireworks? ....... I will give someone a tap recital and a big cake if they can come up with an answer, because I don't think there is one. India is currently celebrating the Diwali festival, which is very much like Christmas (except without the Jesus part and the litres of whiskey) and everyone is very excited. The first few days I remember walking around thinking " Oh isn't this lovely, everyone has their lanterns out and keeps shaking my hand...so sweet". Yeah ..well I spoke too soon. I felt like I was living in a war zone last night. The fireworks kept going until eight this morning. Maybe I don't quite understand but doesn't setting off fireworks in the middle of the day defeat the purpose? I thought fireworks were only effective and sparkly at night? Obviously I have a lot to learn.
On Saturday I went back to all-boys boarding school at Kamshet. It's a lovely school but is in desperate need for funds. It is currently home to fifty boys, mainly from the area of Kargil in Northern India. Many of these boys have lost their parents due to conflict in the area and were moved to Kamshet to find some stability. The boys are so lovely and I really want to get involved in helping this school out. Right now I am just writing a report of the whole situation of the school and I will probably go back in a few weeks. I guess one of the great things that came out of me losing my passport was being able to teach at this school for a week....Maybe some things do happen for a reason.
Anyway, just a quick update. I am sending out lots of love to everyone. Adios

Truckers Unite!

Hello!

Much better today! I tagged along on a 'Trucker medical check-up camp" (quite a mouthful). CFI hosts these health camps every two weeks at various trucker stops around Pen. Although the HIV/Aids department are the guys that organize these, it's not just about helping those who live with Aids. These camps hand out medication for any pain or illness free of charge. As well as handing out medication, the CFI social workers also handout contraceptives and educate the men on safe sex practices. Basically the truckers show up, get a free sex ed class, get looked at by one of the two doctors and pick up any medication they might need. It's really cool and fully funded by CFI/CFN ( no strings attached - from what I know). The truckers were really comfortable with the social workers and had no issue opening up about queries they might have had. It was a fun day and a good way for me to get back to work after my little breakdown on Wednesday. At first it was a little intimidating being the only two women in a group of 250 but

everyone was entirely respectful and mellow ...well sort of...look above for the photo of the "balloons" hanging from a truck....yeah...I guess that's what happens when you hand out birth control to 15 year olds. Anyway, I hope everyone at home is happy and healthy. PLUS I added more photos to flickr! Remember search " Katy Emma Carr" and hit people = taddaa all my pics! Adios

My "models" -->

"Paper bird"

Hello all,
As awkward as this may turn out to be, I feel it is necessary for me speak honestly here, if only to keep my sanity intact. I had a really hard day yesterday and it has sort of spilled over on to the present day which is why I need to write. I sat in on a medical check up camp yesterday at the CFI headquarters. Every week, a local doctor comes in and does a quick medical examination of the local tribes people who are living with HIV/Aids. The doctor is funded by CFI/CFN and also is able to hand out prescriptions for Anti-retroviral medication. Fortunately these patients don't have to pay any money for what can be very expensive medication. Although I feel really low today, I was really lucky to be able to sit in on such a great meeting. One lady has been living with HIV/Aids for 12 years, thanks to the sponsorship of CFI.
I don't know how to feel better. The hardest part of the entire day was to see the doctor pinch the cheeks of a one year old boy, not in affection but to see how quickly the colour returned to his skin. I saw a mother holding this adorable child in the line up and I prayed that this child wasn't infected ( and I am not the praying type). I sat in my chair and literally repeated over and over in my head " Please let this child be okay, please let this child be okay". When his mother sat down and the doctor leaned forward and put his stethoscope to the child's heart, I couldn't breath. I had to make a conscious effort to keep breathing.
I just find it so universally unfair; so unfair that this child wasn't given a fair chance. It makes me so sad to think that this child was never able to make the right decision, to fight for life. This little boy has an expiry date (sadly enough, this term is used around the office). It's so unnatural to me, for a mother to give birth to life and give birth to death at the same time. I think of my own parents and I think of how they would do anything to guarantee life for me. I think about a mother who wants to do anything for her son but literally has no choice. I guess I stopped functioning when a little girl asked the doctor to " please make my medicine sweet, not salty".
I don't know what I need to hear. I guess it's selfish for me to even feel sad; I'm not the one fighting for my life. It just puts my world in perspective. Makes me feel like a total moron for every abusing my health or crying because my friend lied to me.
Anyway, I think I am going to sleep for the rest of the day because I don't know what else to do. Thankfully I have to rest day off. I am just lucky to have my health and my family. I have really incredible people in my life who support me and I appreciate it more and more each moment I am here. I am a very lucky girl. Adios my dears.

Happy Diwali!

Hello!
I am back on solid ground. I had a pretty slow weekend but our program at CFI has picked up a little. Jacci and I will spend the next few weeks spending some time with the HIV/Aids prevention department. Yesterday we went to a village about 30 km away from Pen to attend a youth HIV/Aids awareness camp. It was really cool! The vibe from the people that run this department is very different from the people who run community development. The social workers are a lot calmer and have a knack for keeping a group of 17 year olds focused. I was talking to one of the social workers after the meeting and she said that the meeting was designed to pass on basic knowledge about HIV to the locals. Many of the villagers have misconceptions about HIV but are now finally becoming more comfortable with HIV/Aids education.
Anyway, the day was really fun and tonight we will be attending a medical check up camp for PLWA ( People living with Aids). I shall report back tomorrow.
After my previous rant, I recieved many concerned emails ( I appreciate it by the way). Everything is back to normal and I have just established how far I will bend. I have a habit of never establishing boundaries but now I have, so things are going really well. I am happy and healthy and mid way through the Diwali festival. Diwali is like the Christmas of India and everyone is getting really excited. Fireworks are being sold everywhere (dear god) and beautiful linen lanterns hang in every doorway. Next week we have a two day working week, so if you have any ideas of how to pass time in India (without a travel visa) let me know!
The pictures below are from the youth awareness camp.



















Just wanted to say thank you too my lovely grandparents who surprised me with a phone call from England yesterday. I really appreciated it and am sending all my love ( via the internet of course). Plus, I know all you students are knee deep in midterms, so good luck and stay sane.
Take care everyone. Adios

Halfway

So I am sitting here and wondering how I translate my present state of emotion into words. I'm really angry but at the same time, full of understanding. There is a sense of survival here that I will never fully realize....Okay... Whoah, lets see if I can start making some sense.
What I am realizing is that every aspect of my trip here is a money making business. From the organization that I came out here with to my everyday interactions with our cook, everyone is out to make a dollar at my expense. The short version of this story is that I have been overly trusting with our cook and it seems as if she is taking advantage. But my point is; I get it. Life our here is really tough most of the time and yet the people I have met out here would rather die than admit defeat. So things, if let go, can become a little bit of a game. I just have to start playing along.
You may be wondering why I am writing this seeing as it doesn't really resemble any of my other posts but I think it's important. No one can prepare you for the realities of living in a developing country, let alone an incredibly rural area of a developing country. I think I finally get it though. I also understand why some people can really desensitized living and working out here. It's hard to fully trust anyone you meet and I think I learned the lesson the hard way. Yet, I am not bitter or angry. I understand it. India has been amazing and I am sure it will continue to be amazing. I would never trade my experiences here, even the heartbreaking ones, for anything else. The point behind all of this, is to make sure you have the capacity to find the beauty amongst all the deceitful intentions and broken down cars. I feel like it's a crucial part of opening yourself up to travel ( the "we have no running water" sort of travel). I have discovered more about people in the last four hours then I have in my entire life. Still it seems, they aren't that bad....oh which is huge step for me, by the way.
SO --- just to recap....I am actually healthy and happy! I just had a super intense morning and I needed to share with the great unknown ( the internet and the universe, silly). I am getting weirder by the day. I have lost all sense of style and vanity. I can't even remember what a mascara brush looks like and I have...ready for this...a sweet farmers tan. My feet are constantly dirty, my hair constantly frizzy....and (ready for the shocker)....I couldn't be more excited about this. I am really excited about my resemblance to a cave woman! Honestly, I have more chance of picking up male pattern baldness then I do a man. The thing is, out here all that matters is what I think and how my strength is translated into action. I like it. Oh and if I am wearing the right number of anklets. That's also a big deal.

So life is good! take care everyone, adios

Elephanta!

Okay so these pictures are a little out of order but......

This one is from Elephanta Island off the coast of Mumbai. On this tiny island there are tons of hindu temples and caves. Very cool!

This is the entrance to the first cave




This little guy was running around exploring the caves and I thought he was pretttttty adorable...so me being the creep that I am, snapped a shot.

Our view of the sunset from the top of the boat. Sunset + little cups of chai = Katyland bliss





The Gateway to India. It is one of the most famous sites in Mumbai. The foundation was set in 1920 and the construction officially finished in 1924. It was built to 'commemorate the visit of King George V and Queen Mary to Bombay'. As impressive as it was, I had more fun taking pictures of everyone enjoying their sunday.

See ---- > I can practically hear the ice cream hitting the floor.

The weekend in Mumbai was fun. I was there for official reasons but also had a few moments to do some really touristy stuff. I also had the chance to spend two glorious hours in a massive bookstore, which, for obvious reasons, made my day. There is something special about reading a book about Indian culture, while sharing my one person seat on the train with three other Indian women. I did manage to get home though.
Although I had a great time in Mumbai, I was really happy to get back to Pen last night. Mumbai is really busy and I have become really accustomed to village life. I adore everything about living here. The people, the food, the sounds, the smells, the wonderful cows, our neighbours dogs ( evidently I have begun to hear the sound of my neighbour screaming "DOLLY" in my dreams), our bungalow, sitting on my deck first thing in the morning, the local bakery and I guess above everything, the way I feel when I am here. I wake up completely happy and I close my eyes at night with laughter in my heart. It's hard to explain why but I do really feel wonderful here.

Okay, so let's pretend I didn't sound that cheesy but inspired happiness. I just feel blessed, blessed, blessed.

adios

Giving the gift of gold

This week has been the Diwali festival and a lot of dancing has taken place. It is also just another excuse to prance around in public and in my case, look ricidulous. It has been a lot of fun. The pictures were taken in a tiny village that is currently involved with CFI. We spent the day with the women who were being educated on health and hygiene. It was a really great experience, expecially the dancing. Oh and I literally had the entire dance group falling on the ground laughing at me. Thank god my ego can take it. We also were able to join the community development team in 'community games' in a few villages. One game was designed to empower young women before marriage and another was designed to help married women with health matters. It is interesting to see how CFI uses culture as a tool to educate, by using song and dance. The villagers responded really well to all the games and even encouraged me to join in. This was slightly challenging, as I don't speak Marathi but still fun none the less. The last picture was taken in Ghote village. The main income source for this village is the cultivation of rice. The villagers beat the rice stalks (??) against the barrels to remove the grains. I hope that made sense.

India has been great this past week. Jacci and I have been having dinner at our cook's place and hanging out with her friends and family Everyone has been so welcoming here, which is really fortunate as we are the only westerners in town. It's funny to feel like a celebrity, with people asking for autographs and pictures. Takes a little getting used to. Anyway, I am officially tired of staring at this computer. One more story and I am heading out. Jacci and I were playing a question and answer game with some tribal women yesterday and the question I was asked was " Is it healthier to eat two prunes or to eat tobacco".... Well what do you think?

Adios!

OSHO!

I am writing from the Osho meditation centre in Pune. We arrived Friday afternoon and have spent a glorious weekend here. To be honest, I was a little skeptical ( haha...skeptical..me ..no way!) about the chanting and required maroon robes but after a while I let myself get sucked in. One of my first meditation classes was the Osho Kundalini meditation with shaking, dancing and lying. It was amazing! I walked out of the auditorium feeling like a complete space cadet ( in the best way). I feel like I have discovered a silence in myself that has been dormant for a long time. Wait make that, completely asleep. It is a true gift to be able to spend time here, to sit in silence or wander around aimlessly. I feel totally energized and at the same time, I have slept more in the past weekend than I have in a very long time. And hey, I get to keep the maroon robe.
Oh and FIY, if you ever fly into a country and I don't know, lose your passport and travel visa, make sure you have copies! It has been a major major hassle checking into hotels, seeing as I didn't actually make copies of these two documents. I had to make a lot of calls to the embassy to get in at this retreat but it has been completely worth it. Don't get put off by the middle aged men sporting dresses and pony tails, the things I have experienced here will stay with me for the rest of my life.
Adios!

Roses and Smokeless Chulas

Okay, just to update you. Yesterday we went to the village Ghote, about 10 minutes outside of Pen. It is situated in this gorgeous valley, surrounded by lush green fields and waterfalls. It is so beautiful here, sometimes I can't speak ( I guess that would be a first). So we arrived at this village which has been under the CFI community development plan for three years and were able to look around. It is pretty obvious, compared to other non developed villages, that funding has been designated to Ghote. As much as this village has paved roads and a community hall, it still retained that rural quality. Basically, the ways and practises of tribes people in southern India had not been assimilated in the development process. Every minute I spend with the CFI staff members and listen to what they have to say, I really do learn something new. The unique thing about the community development team is that every member was born and raised in a rural village. They don't barge in with urban idea's and biases and there is never a sense of pity from the CFI workers. The tribes people are incredibly proud of their land and people. I have a lot to learn about introducing development into communties. Well one thing that I have learnt to say is " Goay Chan Ahey", which means " your village is beautiful" in Marati ( the local language). It proves to be pretty useful in the chai tea negotiations.
So I have had a pretty incredible week visiting the tribes that surround Pen. This weekend, my roommate and I are heading to Pune to visit a meditation resort. I will report back from my Zen like state.
Finally, I am trying to think of a funny story. The language barrier proves to be quite funny ALL of the time, especially when you find out you might actually be engaged to 12 year old ( I'm not kidding). Jacci and I were at the beach in Alibuag and this young guy walked up to me. We were chatting about India ( well about the food and cricket) and I asked him how old he was. For some reason this question stumps EVERYONE! This is how the conversation went. Lets call him Bill.
Katy - " How old are you?"
Bill - " Cricket"
Katy - " No no, what age are you?"
Bill" " Ahhhh umm about 80 to 92" ( He looked 15)
Katy " oh Okay great thanks!"

I have to try really hard to control my laughter. I am only a month in and I have a six pack
Anyway, adios!

The joys of the internet

It took me two hours but....finally I have pictures up on Flickr!. So type in " Katy Emma Carr" and press "people". Enjoy!

Finally...

I have some pictures. I will upload the

rest to Flickr..so go look!



This is the guest house in Pen where I am currently living.




A street in Mumbai --->








Three pictures from Takwe, a tiny village I stayed in for a week.









I know it's not many but I will put the rest up. It has been huge pain finding somewhere to upload my ever expanding photo collection. I am enjoying my time here in Pen. My local "coordinator" Sharad, who evidently speaks very basic english, has been taking me around on his motorcycle and showing me the sights. This week I have been going to villages around Pen and seeing how CFI's projects are coming along. I will be spending the next few weeks with the Community Development department. Basically, CFI chooses an entire village to sponsor and they help to create things such as school and health facilities, basic permanent housing and sustainable economies within these villages. Although the language is a major barrier, it is pretty incredible to see the progress that has been made in some communities. In the next few weeks, I will be spending some time with the HIV/Aids awareness and prevention department. I will report back with any interesting stories. Adios!

Flame throwers...

NO joke..Walking to the internet cafe, I very nearly was set on fire. Yes! Welcome to Pen! I have finally arrived here. Pen is a town of about 60, 000 and about a three hour bus ride from Mumbai. It is famous for the mass production of Ganesh idols. It is so gorgeous here. I can't believe it. The fire thing? Just a celebration. Maybe a typical " Hey it's friday, lets go toss around fire!"... or not. I guess I'll never know.
Anyway, just a little update. I spent the last few days in a very rural town called Takwe. Literally in the middle of nowhere. I'm talking sleeping mats and buckets of hot water to wash. It was an amazing experience...besides the "standing in the rain waiting for the bloody autorickshaw to show up " moment. I stayed with a lovely couple who took very good care of me. I arrived in Pen yesterday afternoon and was shown around the CFI (Children's Future India) offices where I will be interning for the next ten weeks. They have some amazing programs that I cannot wait to explore. I have the weekend off, so I will probably be getting lost in Pen. I have to run...I think the cafe is closing. My story of the week----- In Takwe, I was standing besides the side of the highway in the torrential rain and I happen to quickly glance to my left. What did I see? A farmer scrubbing his cow in a near by pond. I don't mean a light shower... I am talking a full on scrub down with a heavy duty brush. Made my day. Pretty funny. Take care! adios

Train Spotting.

Mumbai has been really fun and I have really enjoyed hanging out with the women in the film and media program....some perks include 4 hour Bollywood movies and krumping with Zoe (the aussie) in the middle of our room. It's been quite a treat. We had some time to kill last night, so we all went to the newest mall in town ( pretty typical, I know but apparently it was a sight to see).  It was your average mall. Not not really...It was five stories high and made entirely out of glass...... but the best part was finding the Mecca of doughnut stores. This place " Mad for Doughnut" is a company out of Thailand and the doughnuts are incredible. They even have savory doughnuts with cheese and herbs. It's amazing and was the highlight of my day. Yeah, I like carbs THAT much.  So, back to reality---- I was supposed to be heading out to Pen (the place I will be for the next two and half months) tomorrow morning but it turns out that the other girl in my program won't be there for another week......So....Safeena (the lady who runs ISAC) offered to put me up in her house and said I could spend the next week teaching English at the local orphanage. I am pretty excited about this., plus I will get to finish up the weekend here in Mumbai. So there are all my various updates.  ..OH plus, I was blessed by a eunuch on the train today. I was sitting on the train when this manly looking woman wearing a sari clapped and touched my head. After inquiring about this ritual ( I was thinking " oh that's nice, someone is blessing the train"), I was told that no one will hire eunuchs, so begging and randomly blessing strangers is their only means of income. So I handed him/her five rupees and was officially 'blessed'. Nice ..right?      Adios

"Did you leave anything behind"

.....and the answer to that question is..YES! I did. To avoid looking like a total moron, I am actually going to withhold the specifics. Just know that my first hour in Mumbai started with a little bang. After my two days of traveling and hanging out in airports, I have finally arrived in India. It's ridiculously humid here but I have yet to see any rain. I am spending the weekend in a guest house with a few other girls. It's pretty central in this area (by that I mean I have bottled water and diet coke next door). I have spent some time wandering around and creeping on strangers....nothing out of the ordinary. Nothing too exciting to let everyone know about. ..... Making some tea now! adios

PS I will be uploading pictures soon. Spot the tourist.

Peanut butter.... ?

I think it's incredibly endearing that my dear mum cannot throw away my jar of peanut butter ( which obviously conflicts with the organic, natural theme of the fridge) because she already misses me. Anyway, I am currently on hour 6 of my marathon wait at heathrow aiport. Being the completly neurotic nutjob that I am, I refused to trust T5 with my luggage and felt the need re-check it.....I didn't want to pull a Noami Campbell and kick someone when my precious cargo didn't arrive. That is officially my interesting story of the day.sigh. I am going to cry and drown my sorrow in a venti frappucchino. I'm just joking, I will probably just journal instead ( a big shout out to Chris Gaines for the inspriration). Anyway! . ....On a side note.......Ian Curtis or Nick Jonas?.. Adios

My countdown

So ----- I leave on Thursday the 4Th of September! My day is finally here. I figured I would get used to this and post something. Yeah..Obviously with everyone back at school I have too much time on my hands.

I fly from Vancouver to London and then from London onto Mumbai. I will be spending one night in Mumbai and then heading off to Pen. .. BUT before I hit India I have a seven hour wait at Heathrow airport, so I will post my "assignment" my pops gave me. So for some cheese.... Good luck with the next semester and I send all my love blah blah. See you at Heathrow! ....Sigh, I heart Ian Curtis. Sorry..total afterthought. Adios

Ojai.

Krishnamurti Summer study 2008.

This is halfway attempt at keeping a journal that doesn't have a pink fuzzy lock on it. I am planning on skippin' town in about a month and half, so I figured I would provide a way to keep tracks on me ( yeah sounds a little narcissistic in writing). Anyway, I am currently in Ojai, California. It's a heaven here. I get to wander around and talk about things and eat food. Life doesn't really get any better. The people I have met here are absolutely wonderful and complex and funny and so so beautiful. It's lovely. I'm not sure I want to go back to reality..... K